Tuesday, December 30, 2008

How Big is God?

God is doing some pretty awesome things in Liberia. The Crusade is still on for March 26, 27 & 28th. If you are interested in sponsoring a Liberian to be able to go to the Crusade the seats are $10 and you can buy them on Ebay - http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&ssPageName=STRK:MESELX:IT&item=150317409367.

Below is a video about the Crusade. Please be praying for those who are traveling over to Liberia and for the people of Liberia. If you have any questions email or call me.




Check out the Crusade's webpage http://www.howbigisgod.org

Friday, December 12, 2008

She Understood What I Said...

I wanted to post an email that I received from Andrea. This email literally brought me to tears:

Bre,
I just had to share with you that Josie and I were looking through some pictures last night and we seen the one of you and her together. I asked her if she remembered when you came to the Children's home and she said yes and smiled. I asked her if she remembered anything that you told her and she said yes the you told her that her mommy was coming to get her and that her mommy and her would be together and go to America. I asked her if it made her happy and she said yes. I just thought that I would share that she remembered you and that she remembered what you said. Thank you, you may not have known it at the time, but you gave a little girl some hope at a time that may have seemed pretty hopeless to her.


As I read this I remembered back to when Andrea and I would talk over IM and before the end of our conversations she would always ask me to do three things for her - to pray over Josephine, to give Josephine hugs for Andrea and tell Josephine how much her mommy, daddy and brothers love her and they are coming to get her and take her back to America. So when I would go to the Children's home I would do just what Andrea asked me to do. During the time Josephine and I spent together one on one when I would talk to her I never was quite sure if she understood what I was saying or even if she was listening. The only time she would talk is when we were playing with the other children but when it was just us two she never spoke a word. When I heard from Andrea that she understood what I told her I knew that this very well could have been one of the reasons the Lord sent me to Liberia, to be the messenger to two adoptive mom's who were waiting to hear about their children. I may never really know the exact reason I was chosen to go over to Liberia and experience what I did but I thank God everyday that he allowed me to experience what I did.

Friday, November 7, 2008

Maria is coming to Orange County!

Maria will be visiting Orange County from November 10-12th. She will be speaking at Calvery at Capo and she will also be in Orange on Wednesday night. If you are interested please email me and I can give you more information! You don't want to miss this!

Friday, October 24, 2008

Education equals Sustainability





The toilet is in the final stages of completion! Francis emailed me and said that they plan on opening the toilet sometime in November. The President wanted to attend the grand opening so they pushed back the date. Here are some pictures of the first latrine that was built by a NGO which as you can see is pretty much non existent. The second picture is the pit latrine that was built 2 years ago by another NGO. You can see by the pictures that it has not been taken care of which I believe falls back on the NGO that built the latrine. When this latrine was built it had a septic tank built to contain the waste and then the village was to have it emptied using the money they collected from the users. Obviously this did not work and the villagers rerouted the waste to dump into the river behind the toilet. This causes a problem because when it rains the river rises therefore the waste is brought back into the village.
Unfortunately this is a common occurrence not only in Africa but in other parts of the world. Organizations will go into communities build wells, latrines and turn it over to the community without ongoing education. When I was met with people from Public Works they told me that in Monrovia there are between 500-700 hand-pumps, however 60% of them do not work properly. This is due to the community not properly maintaining the pump which is due to two things: not being properly educated on how to fix and maintain the pump and second if the pump breaks not having access to getting the parts needed to fix the pump. The more I think about it the more I realize that NGO’s have good intentions however it is more of a band aid effect. They are not going to the root of the problem which is EDUCATION!
When organizations whether it be NGO’s, private or government organizations invest they want to show where the money is going. Wells and latrines are physically visible therefore donators are able to instantly see where their money is going towards. Education in a country that has been devastated by war takes years and is not quickly seen therefore is often not a priority. This my friends is the most important piece of the puzzle because without education the cycle will never end. Organizations will continue to build wells and latrines which will be destroyed within a couple of years, children will continue to die from preventable diseases and poverty will continue to grow unless education becomes the primary focus!
With this said some of you maybe thinking, what is going to be different with this toilet? Here are some of the reasons:
1. The DUCOR-WACSN Eco-Sanitation toilet is an actual toilet; it is not a pit latrine that the community previously used.
2. The community helped build the toilet so they have invested time into building something that will benefit them, their children and the community as a whole.
3. The biggest difference is there is ongoing education on how to use the commode, why it is important to use the toilet versus defecating in a plastic bag, in the surrounding areas, etc. The education is being done by people in the community who have been trained by DUCOR-WACSN.
4. There will be monitoring of the toilet by DUCOR-WACSN; the toilet will not be turned over to the community until there is a real understanding of how to run the toilet and until it is sustainable which may take years.
DUCOR and WACSN will continue to build these toilets in markets with their own money until the government and other organizations jump on board. This is going to be a long haul but it is well worth the money and hard work.

Thursday, October 23, 2008

Good Luck Andrea!!


Hello Friends and Family! I have some great news…my friend Andrea who was a huge source of encouragement and support while I was in Liberia is leaving in 2 days to travel to Liberia to get Josephine! I am so excited for Andrea’s journey and I’m excited for her family to finally after months of waiting on the Lord’s timing they are able to bring her home.
Andrea we will keep you in our prayers as you embark on this journey. I can’t wait to hear about your journey and experience! I'm hoping that Andrea will be able to email while she is over there so that I can post updates from her!

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Poverty

Before I left for Africa I thought that poverty in the world could be solved if we had deeper pockets. However after going to Africa and really getting a sense of what life is really like there my thought process has changed. Thinking about how "rich" America is poverty isn't going to be solved with charity. To change poverty is to open minds not just wallets. Changing minds both here in America as well as in Africa. We can change extreme poverty.....the type of poverty where a child goes to bed without eating food, children not being vaccinated, people dying from preventable diseases. Many people look at Africa and other third world countries as burdens but I see them as an opportunities. An opportunity to change someone's life....it just takes us thinking that we can make a difference and doing something about it. Go ahead....just do it and see how it blesses you.

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

Updates on the Literacy program as well as the toilets

I received an email yesterday from Francis and he informed me that there are now 15 women in the literacy program who attend regularly. This is so exciting that the women have taken responsibility and have committed to better themselves! Please continue to pray for the program that it continues to grow, for the women who have dedicated themselves to learning how to read and write as well as for Vivian, Francis and Maria as they are keeping the program going and monitoring it. If you are interested in donating any supplies for the program please email me and I can give you more details!
Other news - the toilet project is coming to a finish. The toilets are almost completed and according to Francis the President and VP are interested so they want to make sure everything is in place before opening it up. Lets keep praying that the government realizes that these toilets are the key to cleaning up Monrovia!

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

I'm home and I would like to say....

I have been back in America for a week now and to be honest with you the transition has been difficult. I became ill the Saturday before I was to leave…needless to say the flight home was very long. It was emotional leaving the country that has captured my heart, leaving the friends that I have made and beginning a new journey….the journey of returning to a world that is familiar yet so unfamiliar. I have come home with a new view on life, on happiness and on love. Coming back to Orange County and seeing the $100,000 cars, the enormous houses and the endless supply of “stuff” saddens me. How can you justify buying an expensive pair of jeans, an expensive car or whatever yet you can’t seem to have enough money to help those who can’t help themselves? To me this doesn’t make sense. My journey to Liberia has been life changing and has been difficult yet it was so rewarding. I am still processing my trip and figuring things out but I would like to take this time to thank a couple of people:

Dad – thank you for all of your encouragement that you gave me before I left and while I was gone. Your guidance and support means so much to me and I thank you for supporting my dreams and my passion.
Adam – you have stood by me during this process even though it was difficult to let me go on this journey. I thank you for your endless support and encouragement. Your daily emails and talks helped me so much while I was thousands of miles away. I love you with all of my heart and I hope that we can go to Liberia together.
Andrea – I have never met you but I feel like I have known you for years. I thank you for your support and encouragement. Your faith in the Lord is amazing and I am so thankful that the Lord brought us together for my journey. You are a wonderful woman of God and I hope that one day we can meet.
Maria (aka the Queen) – I have never met a more inspiring woman in my life, you are a true servant of the Lord and you have a wonderful heart. I am so honored to have met you and to have spent the time we did together was priceless. You allowed me to understand many things that I misunderstood. Thank you for taking the time to share your story with me and I hope to see you soon!
Francis – I have learned so much from you. Thank you for taking me under your wing and showing me so much of Liberia. I admire your passion, your drive and your love for Liberia. I’m excited to continue to work with you from the Golden State.
Abigail – my friend and my sister in Christ. I miss you most of all. Thank you for being my friend and for spending so much time with me. You’re a strong woman and I thank God everyday for bringing you into my life. I listen to your CD everyday and I can’t wait to see you again!
To the rest of my family and friends thank you for the emails that you sent while I was gone. I hope that you enjoyed my journey and thank you for sharing such an amazing journey with me.

Friday, August 15, 2008

Reflection

I look back over my stay here in Liberia and there is one thing that has clearly happened to me. My world has been turned around and my ways of seeing and thinking are drastically different than before I stepped foot in Africa. I sit here and see the endless disadvantages of the people here, the empty hands and stomachs that shouldn't even exist. I see the surplus that the developed world has, a world in which I'm a part of, where people are expected to accumulate, not give away.
As I see the children working in the markets and I see the women and men who work 12-14 hour days just to make a dollar I become haunted. There is no way I can walk away from here and reject the injustice of this unequal world. Christ saw the same thing...he saw the poor, the blind, the sick and the rejected who were struggling. He also saw the other side...the wealthy that didn't take care of the people who were not able to help themselves. He took a stand for the helpless. When I stand back and see the haves and the have-nots, it suddenly becomes clearer and I see the cry for help...that's when I see the heart of Christ in the ones who cry.
I remember reading a book and the author said
"It is not possible to be too generous in this world. It is not likely that I can go wrong in providing for someone if the money is available or my "budget" can be stretched to help a person in need."
I agree with him 100%.
Many people have thanked me for coming and helping their people...but I thank them for opening my eyes and my heart. I have been so blessed to meet the most interesting people and to hear the stories of the people’s lives have been incredible. I will hold a special place in my heart for all of the men, women and children who I have met. There will not be a day that goes by that I will not think of them and miss my dear friends.

Thursday, August 14, 2008

Liberianized



On Wednesday night there was a party at the compound. Maria and Francis had a farewell party for Jem and I. The friends that we have met during our stay came to our party. People from WACSN, DUCOR, Ministry of Health, Immigration, Public Works, Liberia Water and Sewer, Mambo Town East, UNDP, Decontee and Vivian. Jem and I had a chance to thank everyone who has taken the time to meet with us and share so much information with us. Each person that I have met has taught me something. Being in the field has been an eye opening experience and this trip was worth the time and money it took to plan this trip. Then Jem and I were "Liberianized". They bought us traditional dresses and gowned us. My dress is beautiful and now my official Liberian name is K-Ma. We took tons of pictures so I can share them with you. We had a great meal and some people started to leave. We were invited to go out to a "club". We went to Groovies which is a restaurant during the day and then at night they have karaoke. They played a lot of reggae and hip hop. Abigail got up and sang a couple of songs. There was even one guy who sang The Gambler by Johnny Cash...they know about country even in Liberia! I had a great time and I want to thank Maria and Francis for having the party for us.

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

Childhood Education

We went to the children's home yesterday for the first day of school. I was excited to see the children as I have wanted to spend as much time as possible with them. They were excited to see Abigail and I as they have been looking forward to starting "school". PTO, Marco, BaBoy, Ezekiel and Era all asked about James. The wanted to know if I have talked to him since I have been here. They also asked to see the video of him. I told them that they could watch it after "school" was done. We got everyone situated and immediately started on testing what each child knew. To my surprise most of them could recite the alphabet and could identify each letter. There was one child who was 3 and he could recite his ABC's. Most of the children could count from 1-20 but had a harder time identifying the numbers. We taught them the American version of the ABC's and when they were singing it they were dancing around. I was cracking up the whole time. So the children will be learning 3 days a week for an hour and a half to start. As time passes I hope that the time will increase.
I am so glad that WACSN has agreed to start teaching the children the basics. This will definitely help the adoptive parents when they take them back home and they enroll them into school. I am thankful that I was able to find the right people to start this kind of program to lay the foundation for these precious children.

Friday, August 8, 2008

Wiping the Grime off of the Lens that so Easily gets Clouded – F. Bohls

After having a conversation with my father over the Internet he asked me if I had gone back through my blog to see if my views had changed at all. I actually skimmed through my journal that I have been keeping and found it interesting that my viewpoint has changed quite a bit. My dad encouraged me to share with you all how my viewpoint has changed.
In an earlier post I wrote about how frustrated I was getting with the people here and how I didn’t understand the mindset of the people. I had a very enlightening conversation with Maria who is an amazing woman. Her story is incredible and she has a servant’s heart that is obedient to the Lord. She was explaining why the people here are the way they are. In helping me understand she said how the war affected all of the men, women and children in Liberia. Many of the young men were taken from their families and villages and were forced to join the rebels, carry guns and fight. Many of the men who work for WACSN were forced to join the rebel groups and fight…they survived by dancing and singing to keep themselves alive. The women were abused and raped by the rebel groups. These young men and women were robbed of their childhood, of their dreams and of their innocence. The war ended 4 years ago but there are men and women who are now in their 20’s and 30’s have the mentality of a teenager. They never had a chance to be a child or a teenager. Many had family members killed during the war…some had to witness the death of family members. Many people tried to flee the country to stay alive. These men and women do not understand the meaning of family as they were taken from their parents, they do not understand how to resolve conflict and they do not know how to think for themselves because for years they were told what to do and they didn’t question why.
When I first came to Liberia I questioned why the adults didn’t think for themselves, why they said the things they said and I questioned the mindset of the people. I assumed that the people here were like me in how they "should" act or how they "should" think. I never took into account what they actually have been through and that was wrong of me. Now I have a clearer picture and I am more understanding of where the people are at. The people of Liberia have been through hell which was caused by its own people and are now trying to heal and regain confidence in themselves. It takes only a short time to destroy a country and its people but it takes a lifetime to rebuild it.
In closing I would like to share something that Maria challenged me with and I will never forget it. She told me now that I am aware of the problems it now becomes my responsibility to help and I can’t say that I don’t know about it. I encourage you to do the same…now that you know what some of the problems are what are you going to do to help?

Monday, August 4, 2008

A Good Start

As we have traveled around Liberia visiting different villages we found that some of the villages actually had literacy programs for women to teach them how to read and write. Francis thought that we should start one here at WACSN for the women who work for WACSN and the women who live around the compound. I was given the task to start this program. I'm not going to lie I was a little nervous putting this together as I'm not a teacher. Right away I knew a woman who worked for WACSN who would be a great teacher. We had a meeting last Friday for the women to get some general information about them and their families. The women decided to have class on Monday, Wednesday and Fridays from 5:00 until 6:00 p.m.
So today was the big day for the Women's Adult Literacy program. Abigail and I went to get the supplies that were needed (composition books for the women, pencils, chock and markers). We came back and discussed what she would start off teaching these women.
I was shocked when 5:00 rolled around all of the women were here on time! This is a huge deal as most people are late here! There were 8 women who attended the first day of class. Abigail did such a great job encouraging the women and getting them to participate. There were 2 women who did not know the alphabet and by the end of class one of the women knew all of the letters! I felt like a parent watching their child learn something new for the first time! I'm hoping that more women come on Wendesday as we encouraged the women to bring their friends who wanted to learn how to read and write.
For many of these women today was special for them and for once they felt important and apart of something. I will never forget the excitement in the women's faces....it was priceless!

Thursday, July 31, 2008

Reality

I have been here for almost 3 weeks and still I find myself shocked to see the thousands of men, women and children in the streets selling whatever they can to make money to survive. Stunned seeing the thousands of malnourished children that are sick from the environment that they are forced to live in, witnessing people living in conditions that you would never think is possible. There are houses that are surrounded by filth, water that is contaminated with feces, urine, oil and trash.
We met with a man who works for Public Works and he told me that the sewage system was built for 300-500 thousand people. There is a slight problem there are well over a million people living in Monrovia....no wonder the pipe lines get backed up. The overflow is all over the city, next to people's homes, on the streets where people are selling and where people are walking.
Here I am an American citizen who has been submerged into an unfamiliar culture. I have had to adapt to the food, the lack of clean water, the customs, suffering children, disease and heartbreaking requests that seem so simple but yet they are complicated. The need all around the world is so great....maybe you're like me and question where to start. We have to do something...we can't sit by and allow these children to die from preventable diseases! It is 2008 and people should not be living in these conditions. No man, woman or child should go to bed hungry....yet millions of people all around the world do everyday. I write all of this because we see it on the news, we read about it in books, but this is reality! We need to WAKE UP and start helping these people in anyway possible.

Monday, July 28, 2008

A Test

My faith and trust was tested before I arrived in Liberia and continues while I'm here. Over the last week I have been writing about a little girl named Patience, a child who lives in Duala. Every time I go into the village she always finds her place right next to me. However I didn't realize that this little one was being used to test me once again. I couldn't stop thinking about this child and I was very emotional when I would think about this little girl. The enemy was using this little girl as a distraction as he knows my heart for children; he knows that I can be distracted by the desire to adopt. I shared this with Adam one night telling him how I can't bare the thought of leaving this child behind. The next day I was thinking about the situation and how I might be tested with this situation. Then that night it was reconfirmed in an email that was sent to me by Adam. If it was the Lord that was guiding me to this little one then I would not have been so confused, emotional and uneasy. The Lord would have been preparing me to take her home. My job for now is to give her and the other children unconditional love while I am here. As I have been told by my father....God is the author of perfection, not confusion. I have to trust that in God's time my desire to adopt will be fulfilled.

Friday, July 25, 2008

Frustration

Things have been happening this past week that have gotten everyone a little frustrated. Getting the community members to corporate and help build the toilets have been like pulling teeth. They feel entitled to get paid for every little thing that they do. Granted on one hand I understand that they need to make money but on the other hand this toilet is for the community so volunteering wouldn’t kill them either. Some of the community members were upset that they are going to have to pay to use the toilets where as the toilets that they are using now is free of charge for community members. We have been trying to explain to the men and women that the money that is collected will be used to maintain the toilets and keep them clean and working. If there were no charge to use the new toilets then they would be destroyed by the community members and the market sellers. There have been many rumors that have been spreading throughout the community such as an NGO is building the toilets and will be giving out other free goodies as well, there was a rumor that an NGO was going to build toilets in every house and the most recent rumor was that we were building the toilets only for a specific church. Getting this community organized has been difficult and I’m hoping that this will soon pass and we can start the workshops. It is difficult to help people who aren't helping themselves. I’m hoping tomorrow being a holiday and everything being closed for the Independence celebration we can relax and refocus our energy towards getting this project finished. The toilet will be opening in less than 3 weeks and there is so much to do.

Thursday, July 24, 2008

The Big Picture

I have been writing about some of the children who have captured my heart and today I visited the orphanage where my brother James lived. It was emotional walking into the house where my precious brother once stayed. It was great meeting PTO, Ezekiel, Eray, Marco, Josephine and all of the children. They danced and sang for me....we had plenty of fun.
I have been thinking a lot lately about why this country is the way it is and why in 2008 we have people living in poverty.Why are parents willingly giving their children up for adoption and why the country is in the state of brokenness. I'm having a hard time understanding the mindset of the people here. There is no cooperation, no sense of community and no motivation to better themselves partly because there is no opportunity (if you get a chance read Andrea and Adam's comments under my post I Love You....it is very encouraging).
This is all happening for a reason but we can't see the big picture. God has asked many of us to do some crazy things....to step out of our comfort zone and to obey and trust him. I thought of how He knows the future and provides our needs ahead of time. I thought of how He can soften hearts and how I can trust in Him for every situation. He sees the big picture, when all I see is what is right in front of me. I need to rely on Him when the future looks scary. I need to say “yes” to whatever He asks of me, instead of arguing based on my limited view. I can only have a big picture of life when I see it through His eyes. That truth continues to bring me peace....even in the midst of this crazy, mixed-up and broken world.

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

I Love You

As I sit and reflect on the time I spent with Love yesterday, I came to the realization that change needs to occur for children like her. She has so much going for her, she is smart, athletic and most of all genuine. From the moment she ran up to me in the market until the time she went home all she wanted was someone to pay attention to her. Unfortunately she has a path that has been set before her. I pray that she does not end up like most of the women here in Liberia....submissive to men, uneducated and abused. I hope that a family choses to adopt her and take her away from here so that she is able to be a child and have a chance at life.
This is why change needs to happen soon - the children of Liberia are not able to act like children as most of them are helping their mothers sell in the markets or they are watching after their little siblings. Most of the men and women have become numb so that they do not have to feel pain, shame and lonliness. I have not seen one mother or father show affection towards their child since I have been here. I was showing the children the sign for I love you. I asked a little girl if her parents ever tell her that they love her. She told me that she has never heard those words before. My heart broke for this child who has never heard the words I love you. These children have a right to act like children, to have an education, to live in a safe environment and most of all grow up in a loving environment.

Monday, July 21, 2008

I have never seen rain like this!

It started raining on Saturday night and poured all of Sunday. I have never seen rain like this ever. The people keep telling me that this rain was nothing and it will rain harder in August. It rained so hard that the fish pond was overflowing and was poring into the wetlands. The neighbor's backyeard was totally underwater.
I was told that many people lost their homes in Monrovia. There is no drainage system here so the communities at the bottom the the hills were underwater. I went into the city today and most of the water is gone. It is still a mess however with all of the mud everywhere. Down in Duela the market place was a complete mud pit. I was walking and steped into what I thought was a puddle and sank about a good 2 feet into a mud hole. It sacred the living daylights out of me! The smell in Duela was unreal! I have been video taping so when I get back many of you can see what I have been up to. I saw Decontee (Vengee's mother) and I asked if her home was ok and she said it was and so was Vengee's grandmother's home was ok as well. Please pray for the people in Liberia as this is one more thing that they need to worry about. Below is an article that was released from IRIN:

21 July 2008 - Monrovia, Liberia: Intense and heavy rainfall in the Liberian capital Monrovia on 20 July caused the worst floods on record in Monrovia and forced nearly 1,000 people out of their houses, Liberian authorities told IRIN.

All day Sunday, residents in eastern areas of the city including in Paynesville, Townhalk, King Gray, Fish Market and other communities were seen removing personal belongings like mattresses, clothes and pots from their homes. By the end of the day, flood water had blocked roads to the area, and government rescue workers were using canoes to evacuate the remaining people from the flood areas.

"Right now, the Ministry of Health and the Ministry of Internal Affairs along with the Red Cross has been assisting in evacuating the flood affected residents to safer locations and as a temporary measure the government has relocated those residents to shelter in nearby schools," Liberia's Chief Medical Officer Bernice Dahn told IRIN on 21 July.

"With close to 1,000 persons displaced this is the worst flood we have experienced in this city," she said.

Meteorologists have warned that the entire West Africa region is likely to receive above average levels of rainfall in 2008. Floods have already been recorded this year in countries including Benin, Cote d’Ivoire, and Burkina Faso.

However Liberia's Environmental Protection Agency (EPA) acting executive director Jerome Nyenka told IRIN that the cause of the Monrovia flood is due to what he called "encroachment of human habitations on wetlands" as much as the level of rainfall.

"In this case, we have been able to gather that the affected areas are swamps. Because people have erected structures on those wetlands it prevented the flow of water and caused the floods," he said.

Dahn said the health ministry is already liaising with several of the international aid agencies which have presences in Monrovia to coordinate assistance to the flood victims.

Saturday, July 19, 2008

I made a mistake

In my last blog I wrote about a precious child and I got her name mixed up with another child. When I went back into Duela today she came running up to me and gave me a big hug....her name is Patience. This child for some reason has captured my heart. I can't stop thinking about her and I have been praying constantly for her. Please pray for me as for guidance and clarity over what God has in store for me.

Thursday, July 17, 2008

This is unacceptable

On our way to the site where our project is being implemented I noticed how many people there were on the streets. I have never seen so many people in my life...and remember I live in Southern California. The reported population of Monrovia is 1.2 million people. I think that this number is not accurate at all and I say this for two reasons. First, there are people around every corner, down every alley way, along the streets...there are people everywhere so it would be impossible to go door to door assessing how many people live in each house. Second, I went to a conference that the Ministry of Health held to discuss the different aspects of the health field which included Basic Health Service Package, Human Resource, Infrastructure and Support Systems. During the conference it was mentioned that there is no birth registry or death registry in Liberia and most of these people do not vote so the government has no way of knowing how many people are living in the country.
We went to Duela where the DUCOR project being built. There was a stakeholders meeting scheduled for 12:00 - I knew that we were not going to start at 12:00 because we are on Liberian time. Jeminie and I decided that we would go through the town and gather the women to come join the meeting so we left for about 45 minutes. We came back and waited around until the pastor of the church and the school principle arrived. The meeting started at 2:00 (I told you it was going to be late). We discussed the probject and what we were going to need from the community and our agenda for the next week. After that I met many of the village women and saw the living conditions of these people who are at the bottom of the society ladder. No human being should have to live in the conditions that these men, women and children live in. These people need help so desperately. Imagine this (remember this description is not even close to what it is like because you can't smell the smell of the village and your mind can't even imagine the living conditions)....they have no running water, no electricity, the only way to get clean water is to pay $5 US dollars for a 5 gallon container, the women and men work 14 hour days getting supplies for the women to sell in the market place. The women work a 12-14 hour day just sitting at the market trying to sell whatever they have to make any amount of money. They usually do not leave the market place (not even to go to the bathroom) because they need to make money. These market women make about $1 a day if they are lucky so that means $30 a month. The children usually go to school but not always and if they don't go to school then they run around the village.
There are no "toilets" the only toilets they have are dirty and not even toilets, the feces runoff goes right into the river. The village obviously has no drainage system so when it rains the river rises bringing all of the feces, urine, etc back into the village. I will never forget the smell of this village. It smelled like trash, standing water, feces and urine from the villagers and animals, burning trash and marsh all rolled together. Some of the children are running around with no shoes on so they are basically walking in sewage water with mud, urine, bacteria, etc. in it. The clothes they are wearing (if they are wearing any at all) are dirty and old. There is trash everywhere because they don't have anywhere to put it. These market women make about $1 a day if they are lucky so that means $30 a month.
After the meeting we stayed in the village and talked with the people. Of course I was drawn to the children and so I talked with them, sang with them, took pictures of them and gave them candy. A mother came up to me and asked if I would take her sick child because she could not care for her. Looking into this innocent child's eyes broke my heart and having to tell the mother that I would not take her child was even harder. All this mother wants is for her child to be healthy and live a long life. In Liberia the life expectancy is 42 for women and 40 for men. This is unbelievable that people only live until their early 40's. If this was true in America I would have lost my parents many years ago (sorry mom and dad) but to think by the age of 35 the people of Liberia have lived most of their life.
There was a precious little girl who was 4 years old and she followed me everywhere I went. I asked her what her name was and the other children told me that she doesn't talk. I bent down so I could look her in the eyes and asked her what her name was and she told me it was Faith. She was the most beautiful little girl with big brown eyes. If I could have taken her home with me I would have in a heartbeat. She took my hand and did not let go until I got in the car to go home. If another child wanted to hold my hand she put her arms around my leg. My heart hurts for these men, women and children...these innocent little ones who do not know of anyother way life except the one they live day after day in these horrible living conditions. I came home and just cried for these people. They do not have any hope, any joy but when we came into the village and spent time with the women and played with the children just for a moment they had smiles on their faces, joy in their eyes and it made my day knowing that these women and children felt loved from total strangers.

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

God of this City

I went to Passion in LA this past year and there was a song that was sung. As soon as I heard the lyrics I was touched by the song. Reading the lyrics this song applies to any city but for me personally it makes me thinks of Africa - a country that is in dire need of help. These people have been forgotten, children left behind to survive on their own. Here is the link to the song....check it out!

http://youtube.com/watch?v=d61LamkXfwk

Meeting Vengee's Mother

Today I was sitting in the kitchen talking and Mends came up and told me Vengee's mother was here to see me. I knew that I was going to see her but I didn't know when she was going to come to the compound. When Mends told me that she was here and waiting for me my heart started racing....how do you prepare to meet and talk to a mother who she loved so much that she was willing to give her up for adoption so that she could live? I said a prayer and asked for guidance as I was nervous. I went and grabbed the video camera, the pictures as well as the supplies my father sent for her to sell. When I saw Decontee I was immediately comforted and there was a peace that was with me. I went to give her a hug and she seemed a little uncomfortable. She is the smallest thing ever....she is shorter than me and maybe weight 100 pounds soaking wet. Vengee looks exactly like her from her eyes to her smile...even her teeth. I told her how excited I was to meet her and she started asking tons of questions about Vengee, James, Nan and my dad. I showed her the pictures of Vengee and James and her face lit up. All she kept saying was "there is my baby....she looks so so happy." As we went through the pictures we came to a picture of Vengee's bedroom. Decontee made a comment how she was so happy that Vengee was sleeping in a bed because she doesn't even have a bed to sleep on. Those pictures meant the world to her as she told me she was so worried about her surgery. I then showed her the video of Vengee and she started to cry...not from sadness but she was overjoyed that her precious daughter was alive and not sick anymore. She repeated over and over again "Praise God she is all better". She even commented on how big she was and I told her that she has gained weight since her surgery. Decontee stayed with me for 3 hours. We (Abagail, Princess, Decontee and I) went through all of the supplies that my dad and Nan sent and added up how much she would make and it came to $130 US dollars. That is a lot of money...the average income here is $30 US dollars a month. As we sat there and she became more comfortable with me she shared that when Vengee was living with her she was in the hospital all of the time because she was so sick and the doctors there gave Decontee a letter stating that Vengee had a heart problem that needed to be fixed. Decontee then went from doctor to doctor begging someone to help her and was constantly turned down because she has no money and nobody was able to help her with Vengee. The people in the town told Decontee that she was crazy if she thought any doctor would help her because she has no money to pay for help. That is when Decontee said she decided to give Vengee up for adoption. Then the people in the town started telling Decontee how the people who would adopt her would never let her see Vengee again and that the parents were adopting her to sell Vengee's kidneys in America. So after Vengee was taken back to America people started spreading rumors how Decontee was paid to give Vengee to Americans and now she is buying clothes with the money that she was given. The mindset of the people here is so different and it is due to the lack of education. People here don't understand what adoption means. Decontee said that she was going to take the pictures back to all of these people and show them that Vengee is fine and that her parents are good to Vengee as well as herself. Decontee called Vengee's father and I spoke to him. He lives in Bomie County which I will be going to on Saturday and I told him that I would come see him and show him pictures and a video of Vengee. Decontee asked me when she could see me again and I asked if she would come to church with me on Sunday. She agreed and I told her I would like to go see her at Old Road so that I can see where she lives and the Market. She told me where to find her at Old Road. I also plan to see Vengee's Grandma and Grace. Meeting Decontee was such a wonderful experience and listening to her talk about Vengee it sounds like she has a real peace with the decision she made a year ago to give her precious daughter up for adoption.

Monday, July 14, 2008

Hello From Liberia

Hello Friends and Family!
After a long trip from Orange County to Chicago, to Brussels, to Ivory Coast to Monrovia I made it here safe and sound! I had an interesting day traveling over to Liberia....I have to say I met some very interesting people along the way and I was shocked when I had to chose between lamb or fish as a meal on the plane....they don't serve that in the US.
Liberia is everything that I was told it would be - beautiful, distinct smell, beautiful people and mysterious. I arrived at sunset so I wasn't able to see much of the town driving to the compound but from what I could see it is nothing like I imagined. There are men, women and children walking on the side of the road, people sitting on their front porches using candles for light and the roads have tons of potholes in them. Their driving here makes me a little nervous. If I had to compare it I would say its like driving in Tijuana mixed with drivers from Leisure World....scary I know. I was able to talk with Francis on the drive home and he is so passionate about helping the people here. He has a great vision and I feel privaliged to be working with him and his team. Tomorrow we will be going to a Health Conference....that is if we can sneak in then we will be going to the market place. I'm so excited to begin this exciting adventure. I will post pictures as soon as I can!

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

I'm amazed

Reflecting over the past week I can't help but just stand in total amazement. God is so good and has orchestrated my trip so beautifully. From the email that I received from Francis to the confirmation from Maria that this is what I am supposed to be doing to even the generous offer from my good friend Jen....I am in total awe! To see the way God is working even before I leave just blows me away. This past weekend I was with my family and most of them kept asking if I am scared to be traveling alone. Honestly I'm not and it is the best feeling to be going with s sense of peace that only God can give. I am excited to be able to use the gifts that God has given me to help his people. In Psalm 37:4 it says "Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart." I have wanted this for so long and I still can't believe that I am finally getting the chance to do what I'm passionate about. There are times when I try to imagine what it's going to be like while I'm in Liberia but my mind can't even fathom what it's going to be like. I'm excited to share with you what will happen once I leave Orange County....hold on this is going to be an adventure of a lifetime!

Wednesday, July 2, 2008

Putting my hard earned education to use

I received an email on Sunday night from a man named Francis and he works with DUCOR Waste Management (DUCOR) and the Liberia Environmental Action Fund (LEAF). They are partnering with WACSN in a few areas dealing with safe water, sanitation, hygiene and public health. He asked if I would be interested in working with him on a couple of projects that he is working on. The projects include the building of sustainable community pour-flush toilets and wells in Peri-urban market communities to help improve living conditions, remove health hazards and prevent environmental degradation. They are wanting to educate Monrovia’s market communities (mostly women and children) in matters of public health, recycling and the proper handling and disposal of waste.
I was floored when I received this email because this is similar to the project that I'm developing (educating of women on the importance of water sanitation and proper hygiene practice) for school. Of course I emailed him back saying I would be delighted to work with him and help him in anyway possible. My trip is coming together and I'm getting more and more excited as the time comes for me to leave. Now the only thing I need to worry about is getting IRB approval before I leave and packing! 11 more days....

Friday, June 20, 2008

Doing something for someone else

As I'm preparing for my trip I can't help but wonder why and how Africa is the way it is. It is an absolutely beautiful country and the culture is unbelievable but what happened along the way to bring the country to poverty, orphans, AIDS and war? I'm taking an International Environmental class and I've been reading about how we as humans destroy the environment due to technology, overpopulation, over use age of our natural resources...the list can go on and on. It wasn't until I was reading Collapse by Jared Diamond and in talking with my friend Katie that I realized maybe it is the other way around. Maybe the environment influences human behavior. I think about Liberia and how the country has been torn apart by civil war and how that left the country with an unemployment rate of 85% (and that is generous) and that left Liberia as the third poorest country in the world. The people of Liberia do not trust anyone...not even their own people. What country would want to invest in a Liberia when it is unstable? The only reason another country would invest in Liberia honestly is for its natural resources. Then once those are depleted then they will pull out and Liberia will be back at square one.

I have spent many hours thinking and talking with my dad about what needs to happen to bring hope and life back into Liberia. Most of us would think - structured government, education, health care....that's what I thought until last week when I went to church with my dad. The pastor just got back from Liberia as he adopted 2 beautiful twin girls he was saying how he was thinking about what needs to be done in Liberia and he thought the same ideas..government, education, health care, etc. however all of those ideas were previously done. Liberia's government was modeled after the United State's government, a university was built and modeled after the schools in the US....so what needs to happen how? What Liberia needs now is prayer. He said how when you hear the cry of others how we need to respond. Does that mean that you have to go adopt or travel over there? No you don't need to do that but we as a nation need to do something....support a child, send supplies that are needed, pray for those who live in Liberia or support people going on mission trips. I encourage you to help out in any way possible. We are all in this together....look outside yourself and do something for someone else.

I heard this quote and it says "You will be blessed when you give to one knowing that will never be able to repay you".

Monday, June 16, 2008

Fathers Day

Fathers day......a day in the American culture where we honor our fathers. It occurred to me yesterday as I was spending time with my dad that there are so many children around the world who do not have fathers, mothers or people in their life who unconditionally love and nurture them. Why.....why is this happening all over the world? There are multiple reasons why - selfish reasons, disease, war, death...the list could go on and on. It blows my mind that 143 million orphans (orphanshope.com) worldwide are left alone to fight this harsh world by themselves to survive with nobody to support, love, encourage or guide them through life. I have been mentally preparing myself for my trip. I know that I will have a hard time emotionally seeing people living in the conditions that we as Americans are not used to and seeing this beautiful country that has been destroyed by its own people. How do you prepare youself to experience Liberian women begging you to take their children so that they can have a chance to live a life without being susceptible to the hardship that they will endure if they stay in Liberia. All I can do is pray that I am equipped to be able to soak in the culture, life, emotion that Liberia has to offer.

Friday, June 13, 2008

Is this real?

My trip is rapidly approaching and I still can't believe I'm actually fulfilling a long time dream. I got my shots and have my itinerary but today it really hit me that I'm leaving in a month. I'm excited, nervous and scared all at the same time. I'm excited to be able to go over to Africa and help these men, women and children who have no hope and I have been praying that I will be able to make an impact on just one person...if that was to happen it would be totally worth it. I am excited to go to the place where Vengee and James came from. To see where they lived, to meet their friend and family will be an experience that I will treasure. It will be in some way bittersweet. To be able to take the project that I am developing over there to see if it would work and help the citizens of Liberia is an honor. I'm definitely nervous to be traveling such a long way by myself...if you know me at all I'm sure you're just as nervous as I am! I'm also a little nervous of the unknown. I'm a little nervous that I'm going so far away by myself...I've always traveled with my family overseas and to be going to a place that is totally outside of my comfort zone is a little scary. However I am glad that I'm going alone - I will be able to grow and only be able to rely on myself and the Lord is very exciting. I just can't believe that my time has finally come to live out my dream. This is going to be a crazy ride and I hope that I can savor every minute of it!

WACSN

The West African Children Support Network is a non-profit organization that was established in 1995, WACSN is dedicated to the rehabilitation of orphans and abandoned children in West African countries ravaged by war. Their vision is the development of alliances and collaborations with existing organizations to improve the lives of those we serve, especially children and mothers living in difficult economic circumstances. There are so many ways in which you can help WACSN - you can support a child, send supplies for food, building supplies, medical supplies...the list is endless. Check out WACSN's website at www.WACSN.org and please remember your donation doesn't need to be a huge amount....every little bit helps!

Thursday, June 12, 2008

Background on Liberia


Twenty years of civil war were brought to a close in 1997 when free and open presidential and legislative elections were held. President Taylor now holds strong executive power with no real political opposition. Years of fighting, coupled with the flight of most businesses, have disrupted formal economic activity. A still unsettled domestic security situation has slowed the process of rebuilding the social and economic structure of this war-torn country. In 2001, the UN imposed sanctions on Liberian diamonds, along with an arms embargo and a travel ban on government officials, for Liberia's support of the rebel insurgency in Sierra Leone. Renewed rebel activity has further eroded stability and economic activity. A regional peace initiative commenced in the spring of 2003 but was disrupted by the Special Court for Sierra Leone (SCSL) indictment of President Taylor on war crimes charges.


Facts:

Area: 43 000 square miles

Population: 3 million

Unemployment: 87%

Language: English 20% (official), some 20 ethnic-group languages

Natural Resources: Deposits of iron ore, rubber, timber, diamonds, gold and tin, hydropower; crude oil along Atlantic Coast