Sunday, January 25, 2009

2 Precious Children




I took Vengee and James to the Long Beach Aquarium and we had such a blast! I was a little nervous to take both of them by myself but they were so good! They were so funny when they saw all of the fish and the divers. Vengee fell in love with one of them. When we left to go home she told me that she missed him. The kids had a blast touching the sharks and the sting rays. Vengee was a little hesitant at first but she touched them with 2 fingers with my help. As James would say the sharks are slippy. I love these kids so much and I can't even imagine my life without them! They are such a blessing and yet they have no concept of the impact they have on others. Here are some pictures from our fun-filled day!

Monday, January 19, 2009

The Big Question

What am I going to do with my life? I have been trying to figure that out for a while, even more after I returned from Liberia. My heart and my mind have been torn. My heart has always wanted to start a non profit that is focused on the basic Public Health needs (water, hygiene, sanitation, etc.). But then my mind comes in and I know that it’s going to be a lot of work and I am not business minded. I have been job searching for a couple months because I want to use my education and I want to make a difference in the lives of people who are overlooked…but nothing has fallen into place. The urge to start a non profit has been on my mind more now than ever. You're probably thinking what’s holding me back? To be totally honest I’m afraid of failing and also starting something like this will be overwhelming to start on my own. But then I think to myself if I tried it I can never look back and think what if. Please pray for guidance and direction as this is something that I have always wanted to do, but I want to make sure that this is what the Lord wants me to do.

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Reflection of 2008

Things that impacted me:

- Going to Africa by myself for 5 weeks and coming back a changed person
- Having James and Vengee in our family
- Working full time and going through Grad school at the same time
- While I was in Liberia realizing that every decision you make whether it be a good decision or bad decision it affects other people.

Happiest moments:

- Being in Africa
- Experience the “firsts” with the kids
- Spending time with loved ones

Biggest regrets:

- Being too busy to enjoy my life
- Not letting my guard down
- Not protecting my heart

Surprises:

- Finishing school early
- The additions to our family (James, Vengee and Bryson)
- Going skydiving
- Deciding to coach high school softball

Blessings from God:

- Fulfilling a dream of going to Africa
- The friendships that blossomed from my trip
- A change of heart towards those who are less fortunate

Hopes for 2009:

- Continue to grow as a woman of God
- Start the non-profit
- Inspire someone to step out of their comfort zone
- Trust God with every aspect of my life

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Peace



Lately I have been thinking a lot about 2 children that stole my heart while I was in Liberia. Patience the little girl who lived in the village where the project was and Charles (one of James' best friend) who lived at Old Road. They have been on my mind and I find myself wondering how they are doing. When Maria was here I told her how I want to adopt Charles so she better keep him until I come to get him. I worry about Patience living where she does with the disease and malnutrition. My heart is broken for these children and I don't know what to do about it.
I often wonder why my heart was allowed to be connected to these two children. They are no different than the other thousands of children that were in Liberia...but for some reason I think about them constantly. I hope and pray that some way, some how God will give me peace about these two precious children.

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

How Big is God?

God is doing some pretty awesome things in Liberia. The Crusade is still on for March 26, 27 & 28th. If you are interested in sponsoring a Liberian to be able to go to the Crusade the seats are $10 and you can buy them on Ebay - http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&ssPageName=STRK:MESELX:IT&item=150317409367.

Below is a video about the Crusade. Please be praying for those who are traveling over to Liberia and for the people of Liberia. If you have any questions email or call me.




Check out the Crusade's webpage http://www.howbigisgod.org

Friday, December 12, 2008

She Understood What I Said...

I wanted to post an email that I received from Andrea. This email literally brought me to tears:

Bre,
I just had to share with you that Josie and I were looking through some pictures last night and we seen the one of you and her together. I asked her if she remembered when you came to the Children's home and she said yes and smiled. I asked her if she remembered anything that you told her and she said yes the you told her that her mommy was coming to get her and that her mommy and her would be together and go to America. I asked her if it made her happy and she said yes. I just thought that I would share that she remembered you and that she remembered what you said. Thank you, you may not have known it at the time, but you gave a little girl some hope at a time that may have seemed pretty hopeless to her.


As I read this I remembered back to when Andrea and I would talk over IM and before the end of our conversations she would always ask me to do three things for her - to pray over Josephine, to give Josephine hugs for Andrea and tell Josephine how much her mommy, daddy and brothers love her and they are coming to get her and take her back to America. So when I would go to the Children's home I would do just what Andrea asked me to do. During the time Josephine and I spent together one on one when I would talk to her I never was quite sure if she understood what I was saying or even if she was listening. The only time she would talk is when we were playing with the other children but when it was just us two she never spoke a word. When I heard from Andrea that she understood what I told her I knew that this very well could have been one of the reasons the Lord sent me to Liberia, to be the messenger to two adoptive mom's who were waiting to hear about their children. I may never really know the exact reason I was chosen to go over to Liberia and experience what I did but I thank God everyday that he allowed me to experience what I did.

Friday, November 7, 2008

Maria is coming to Orange County!

Maria will be visiting Orange County from November 10-12th. She will be speaking at Calvery at Capo and she will also be in Orange on Wednesday night. If you are interested please email me and I can give you more information! You don't want to miss this!

Friday, October 24, 2008

Education equals Sustainability





The toilet is in the final stages of completion! Francis emailed me and said that they plan on opening the toilet sometime in November. The President wanted to attend the grand opening so they pushed back the date. Here are some pictures of the first latrine that was built by a NGO which as you can see is pretty much non existent. The second picture is the pit latrine that was built 2 years ago by another NGO. You can see by the pictures that it has not been taken care of which I believe falls back on the NGO that built the latrine. When this latrine was built it had a septic tank built to contain the waste and then the village was to have it emptied using the money they collected from the users. Obviously this did not work and the villagers rerouted the waste to dump into the river behind the toilet. This causes a problem because when it rains the river rises therefore the waste is brought back into the village.
Unfortunately this is a common occurrence not only in Africa but in other parts of the world. Organizations will go into communities build wells, latrines and turn it over to the community without ongoing education. When I was met with people from Public Works they told me that in Monrovia there are between 500-700 hand-pumps, however 60% of them do not work properly. This is due to the community not properly maintaining the pump which is due to two things: not being properly educated on how to fix and maintain the pump and second if the pump breaks not having access to getting the parts needed to fix the pump. The more I think about it the more I realize that NGO’s have good intentions however it is more of a band aid effect. They are not going to the root of the problem which is EDUCATION!
When organizations whether it be NGO’s, private or government organizations invest they want to show where the money is going. Wells and latrines are physically visible therefore donators are able to instantly see where their money is going towards. Education in a country that has been devastated by war takes years and is not quickly seen therefore is often not a priority. This my friends is the most important piece of the puzzle because without education the cycle will never end. Organizations will continue to build wells and latrines which will be destroyed within a couple of years, children will continue to die from preventable diseases and poverty will continue to grow unless education becomes the primary focus!
With this said some of you maybe thinking, what is going to be different with this toilet? Here are some of the reasons:
1. The DUCOR-WACSN Eco-Sanitation toilet is an actual toilet; it is not a pit latrine that the community previously used.
2. The community helped build the toilet so they have invested time into building something that will benefit them, their children and the community as a whole.
3. The biggest difference is there is ongoing education on how to use the commode, why it is important to use the toilet versus defecating in a plastic bag, in the surrounding areas, etc. The education is being done by people in the community who have been trained by DUCOR-WACSN.
4. There will be monitoring of the toilet by DUCOR-WACSN; the toilet will not be turned over to the community until there is a real understanding of how to run the toilet and until it is sustainable which may take years.
DUCOR and WACSN will continue to build these toilets in markets with their own money until the government and other organizations jump on board. This is going to be a long haul but it is well worth the money and hard work.

Thursday, October 23, 2008

Good Luck Andrea!!


Hello Friends and Family! I have some great news…my friend Andrea who was a huge source of encouragement and support while I was in Liberia is leaving in 2 days to travel to Liberia to get Josephine! I am so excited for Andrea’s journey and I’m excited for her family to finally after months of waiting on the Lord’s timing they are able to bring her home.
Andrea we will keep you in our prayers as you embark on this journey. I can’t wait to hear about your journey and experience! I'm hoping that Andrea will be able to email while she is over there so that I can post updates from her!

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Poverty

Before I left for Africa I thought that poverty in the world could be solved if we had deeper pockets. However after going to Africa and really getting a sense of what life is really like there my thought process has changed. Thinking about how "rich" America is poverty isn't going to be solved with charity. To change poverty is to open minds not just wallets. Changing minds both here in America as well as in Africa. We can change extreme poverty.....the type of poverty where a child goes to bed without eating food, children not being vaccinated, people dying from preventable diseases. Many people look at Africa and other third world countries as burdens but I see them as an opportunities. An opportunity to change someone's life....it just takes us thinking that we can make a difference and doing something about it. Go ahead....just do it and see how it blesses you.

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

Updates on the Literacy program as well as the toilets

I received an email yesterday from Francis and he informed me that there are now 15 women in the literacy program who attend regularly. This is so exciting that the women have taken responsibility and have committed to better themselves! Please continue to pray for the program that it continues to grow, for the women who have dedicated themselves to learning how to read and write as well as for Vivian, Francis and Maria as they are keeping the program going and monitoring it. If you are interested in donating any supplies for the program please email me and I can give you more details!
Other news - the toilet project is coming to a finish. The toilets are almost completed and according to Francis the President and VP are interested so they want to make sure everything is in place before opening it up. Lets keep praying that the government realizes that these toilets are the key to cleaning up Monrovia!

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

I'm home and I would like to say....

I have been back in America for a week now and to be honest with you the transition has been difficult. I became ill the Saturday before I was to leave…needless to say the flight home was very long. It was emotional leaving the country that has captured my heart, leaving the friends that I have made and beginning a new journey….the journey of returning to a world that is familiar yet so unfamiliar. I have come home with a new view on life, on happiness and on love. Coming back to Orange County and seeing the $100,000 cars, the enormous houses and the endless supply of “stuff” saddens me. How can you justify buying an expensive pair of jeans, an expensive car or whatever yet you can’t seem to have enough money to help those who can’t help themselves? To me this doesn’t make sense. My journey to Liberia has been life changing and has been difficult yet it was so rewarding. I am still processing my trip and figuring things out but I would like to take this time to thank a couple of people:

Dad – thank you for all of your encouragement that you gave me before I left and while I was gone. Your guidance and support means so much to me and I thank you for supporting my dreams and my passion.
Adam – you have stood by me during this process even though it was difficult to let me go on this journey. I thank you for your endless support and encouragement. Your daily emails and talks helped me so much while I was thousands of miles away. I love you with all of my heart and I hope that we can go to Liberia together.
Andrea – I have never met you but I feel like I have known you for years. I thank you for your support and encouragement. Your faith in the Lord is amazing and I am so thankful that the Lord brought us together for my journey. You are a wonderful woman of God and I hope that one day we can meet.
Maria (aka the Queen) – I have never met a more inspiring woman in my life, you are a true servant of the Lord and you have a wonderful heart. I am so honored to have met you and to have spent the time we did together was priceless. You allowed me to understand many things that I misunderstood. Thank you for taking the time to share your story with me and I hope to see you soon!
Francis – I have learned so much from you. Thank you for taking me under your wing and showing me so much of Liberia. I admire your passion, your drive and your love for Liberia. I’m excited to continue to work with you from the Golden State.
Abigail – my friend and my sister in Christ. I miss you most of all. Thank you for being my friend and for spending so much time with me. You’re a strong woman and I thank God everyday for bringing you into my life. I listen to your CD everyday and I can’t wait to see you again!
To the rest of my family and friends thank you for the emails that you sent while I was gone. I hope that you enjoyed my journey and thank you for sharing such an amazing journey with me.

Friday, August 15, 2008

Reflection

I look back over my stay here in Liberia and there is one thing that has clearly happened to me. My world has been turned around and my ways of seeing and thinking are drastically different than before I stepped foot in Africa. I sit here and see the endless disadvantages of the people here, the empty hands and stomachs that shouldn't even exist. I see the surplus that the developed world has, a world in which I'm a part of, where people are expected to accumulate, not give away.
As I see the children working in the markets and I see the women and men who work 12-14 hour days just to make a dollar I become haunted. There is no way I can walk away from here and reject the injustice of this unequal world. Christ saw the same thing...he saw the poor, the blind, the sick and the rejected who were struggling. He also saw the other side...the wealthy that didn't take care of the people who were not able to help themselves. He took a stand for the helpless. When I stand back and see the haves and the have-nots, it suddenly becomes clearer and I see the cry for help...that's when I see the heart of Christ in the ones who cry.
I remember reading a book and the author said
"It is not possible to be too generous in this world. It is not likely that I can go wrong in providing for someone if the money is available or my "budget" can be stretched to help a person in need."
I agree with him 100%.
Many people have thanked me for coming and helping their people...but I thank them for opening my eyes and my heart. I have been so blessed to meet the most interesting people and to hear the stories of the people’s lives have been incredible. I will hold a special place in my heart for all of the men, women and children who I have met. There will not be a day that goes by that I will not think of them and miss my dear friends.

Thursday, August 14, 2008

Liberianized



On Wednesday night there was a party at the compound. Maria and Francis had a farewell party for Jem and I. The friends that we have met during our stay came to our party. People from WACSN, DUCOR, Ministry of Health, Immigration, Public Works, Liberia Water and Sewer, Mambo Town East, UNDP, Decontee and Vivian. Jem and I had a chance to thank everyone who has taken the time to meet with us and share so much information with us. Each person that I have met has taught me something. Being in the field has been an eye opening experience and this trip was worth the time and money it took to plan this trip. Then Jem and I were "Liberianized". They bought us traditional dresses and gowned us. My dress is beautiful and now my official Liberian name is K-Ma. We took tons of pictures so I can share them with you. We had a great meal and some people started to leave. We were invited to go out to a "club". We went to Groovies which is a restaurant during the day and then at night they have karaoke. They played a lot of reggae and hip hop. Abigail got up and sang a couple of songs. There was even one guy who sang The Gambler by Johnny Cash...they know about country even in Liberia! I had a great time and I want to thank Maria and Francis for having the party for us.

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

Childhood Education

We went to the children's home yesterday for the first day of school. I was excited to see the children as I have wanted to spend as much time as possible with them. They were excited to see Abigail and I as they have been looking forward to starting "school". PTO, Marco, BaBoy, Ezekiel and Era all asked about James. The wanted to know if I have talked to him since I have been here. They also asked to see the video of him. I told them that they could watch it after "school" was done. We got everyone situated and immediately started on testing what each child knew. To my surprise most of them could recite the alphabet and could identify each letter. There was one child who was 3 and he could recite his ABC's. Most of the children could count from 1-20 but had a harder time identifying the numbers. We taught them the American version of the ABC's and when they were singing it they were dancing around. I was cracking up the whole time. So the children will be learning 3 days a week for an hour and a half to start. As time passes I hope that the time will increase.
I am so glad that WACSN has agreed to start teaching the children the basics. This will definitely help the adoptive parents when they take them back home and they enroll them into school. I am thankful that I was able to find the right people to start this kind of program to lay the foundation for these precious children.

Friday, August 8, 2008

Wiping the Grime off of the Lens that so Easily gets Clouded – F. Bohls

After having a conversation with my father over the Internet he asked me if I had gone back through my blog to see if my views had changed at all. I actually skimmed through my journal that I have been keeping and found it interesting that my viewpoint has changed quite a bit. My dad encouraged me to share with you all how my viewpoint has changed.
In an earlier post I wrote about how frustrated I was getting with the people here and how I didn’t understand the mindset of the people. I had a very enlightening conversation with Maria who is an amazing woman. Her story is incredible and she has a servant’s heart that is obedient to the Lord. She was explaining why the people here are the way they are. In helping me understand she said how the war affected all of the men, women and children in Liberia. Many of the young men were taken from their families and villages and were forced to join the rebels, carry guns and fight. Many of the men who work for WACSN were forced to join the rebel groups and fight…they survived by dancing and singing to keep themselves alive. The women were abused and raped by the rebel groups. These young men and women were robbed of their childhood, of their dreams and of their innocence. The war ended 4 years ago but there are men and women who are now in their 20’s and 30’s have the mentality of a teenager. They never had a chance to be a child or a teenager. Many had family members killed during the war…some had to witness the death of family members. Many people tried to flee the country to stay alive. These men and women do not understand the meaning of family as they were taken from their parents, they do not understand how to resolve conflict and they do not know how to think for themselves because for years they were told what to do and they didn’t question why.
When I first came to Liberia I questioned why the adults didn’t think for themselves, why they said the things they said and I questioned the mindset of the people. I assumed that the people here were like me in how they "should" act or how they "should" think. I never took into account what they actually have been through and that was wrong of me. Now I have a clearer picture and I am more understanding of where the people are at. The people of Liberia have been through hell which was caused by its own people and are now trying to heal and regain confidence in themselves. It takes only a short time to destroy a country and its people but it takes a lifetime to rebuild it.
In closing I would like to share something that Maria challenged me with and I will never forget it. She told me now that I am aware of the problems it now becomes my responsibility to help and I can’t say that I don’t know about it. I encourage you to do the same…now that you know what some of the problems are what are you going to do to help?

Monday, August 4, 2008

A Good Start

As we have traveled around Liberia visiting different villages we found that some of the villages actually had literacy programs for women to teach them how to read and write. Francis thought that we should start one here at WACSN for the women who work for WACSN and the women who live around the compound. I was given the task to start this program. I'm not going to lie I was a little nervous putting this together as I'm not a teacher. Right away I knew a woman who worked for WACSN who would be a great teacher. We had a meeting last Friday for the women to get some general information about them and their families. The women decided to have class on Monday, Wednesday and Fridays from 5:00 until 6:00 p.m.
So today was the big day for the Women's Adult Literacy program. Abigail and I went to get the supplies that were needed (composition books for the women, pencils, chock and markers). We came back and discussed what she would start off teaching these women.
I was shocked when 5:00 rolled around all of the women were here on time! This is a huge deal as most people are late here! There were 8 women who attended the first day of class. Abigail did such a great job encouraging the women and getting them to participate. There were 2 women who did not know the alphabet and by the end of class one of the women knew all of the letters! I felt like a parent watching their child learn something new for the first time! I'm hoping that more women come on Wendesday as we encouraged the women to bring their friends who wanted to learn how to read and write.
For many of these women today was special for them and for once they felt important and apart of something. I will never forget the excitement in the women's faces....it was priceless!

Thursday, July 31, 2008

Reality

I have been here for almost 3 weeks and still I find myself shocked to see the thousands of men, women and children in the streets selling whatever they can to make money to survive. Stunned seeing the thousands of malnourished children that are sick from the environment that they are forced to live in, witnessing people living in conditions that you would never think is possible. There are houses that are surrounded by filth, water that is contaminated with feces, urine, oil and trash.
We met with a man who works for Public Works and he told me that the sewage system was built for 300-500 thousand people. There is a slight problem there are well over a million people living in Monrovia....no wonder the pipe lines get backed up. The overflow is all over the city, next to people's homes, on the streets where people are selling and where people are walking.
Here I am an American citizen who has been submerged into an unfamiliar culture. I have had to adapt to the food, the lack of clean water, the customs, suffering children, disease and heartbreaking requests that seem so simple but yet they are complicated. The need all around the world is so great....maybe you're like me and question where to start. We have to do something...we can't sit by and allow these children to die from preventable diseases! It is 2008 and people should not be living in these conditions. No man, woman or child should go to bed hungry....yet millions of people all around the world do everyday. I write all of this because we see it on the news, we read about it in books, but this is reality! We need to WAKE UP and start helping these people in anyway possible.

Monday, July 28, 2008

A Test

My faith and trust was tested before I arrived in Liberia and continues while I'm here. Over the last week I have been writing about a little girl named Patience, a child who lives in Duala. Every time I go into the village she always finds her place right next to me. However I didn't realize that this little one was being used to test me once again. I couldn't stop thinking about this child and I was very emotional when I would think about this little girl. The enemy was using this little girl as a distraction as he knows my heart for children; he knows that I can be distracted by the desire to adopt. I shared this with Adam one night telling him how I can't bare the thought of leaving this child behind. The next day I was thinking about the situation and how I might be tested with this situation. Then that night it was reconfirmed in an email that was sent to me by Adam. If it was the Lord that was guiding me to this little one then I would not have been so confused, emotional and uneasy. The Lord would have been preparing me to take her home. My job for now is to give her and the other children unconditional love while I am here. As I have been told by my father....God is the author of perfection, not confusion. I have to trust that in God's time my desire to adopt will be fulfilled.

Friday, July 25, 2008

Frustration

Things have been happening this past week that have gotten everyone a little frustrated. Getting the community members to corporate and help build the toilets have been like pulling teeth. They feel entitled to get paid for every little thing that they do. Granted on one hand I understand that they need to make money but on the other hand this toilet is for the community so volunteering wouldn’t kill them either. Some of the community members were upset that they are going to have to pay to use the toilets where as the toilets that they are using now is free of charge for community members. We have been trying to explain to the men and women that the money that is collected will be used to maintain the toilets and keep them clean and working. If there were no charge to use the new toilets then they would be destroyed by the community members and the market sellers. There have been many rumors that have been spreading throughout the community such as an NGO is building the toilets and will be giving out other free goodies as well, there was a rumor that an NGO was going to build toilets in every house and the most recent rumor was that we were building the toilets only for a specific church. Getting this community organized has been difficult and I’m hoping that this will soon pass and we can start the workshops. It is difficult to help people who aren't helping themselves. I’m hoping tomorrow being a holiday and everything being closed for the Independence celebration we can relax and refocus our energy towards getting this project finished. The toilet will be opening in less than 3 weeks and there is so much to do.